This memoir recounts our journey through subjugation, loss of self, despair and how Saki’s unwavering love and tenacity helped me survive, heal and ultimately rediscover myself.  Our story begins with a dramatic escape, capturing the fear and the hopelessness of my five month relationship with Theo, a man with narcissistic and bipolar personality disorder. 

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Flashing back to our initial happiness, the narrative details how Theos manipulations gradually strip away my identity.  He bought me Saki to tighten his control, knowing I would never leave her.  Her loyalty  and courage gave me the strength to leave him, emphasizing the theme of survival against overwhelming odds. 

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When Theo kidnaps Saki, my neighbor Patrick aids in her rescue, marking Theos removal from my life and the beginning of a new chapter.  Patrick quickly became my boyfriend and two years later we married.  I traded one narcissist bipolar disorder for another.  Then starts another journey of abuse and isolation while we move to Napa valley to start a life together.  My journal excerpts vividly depict my pain and Sakis' steadfast presence, illustrating the themes of resilience and the healing power of companionship. The book is a memoir of the last 15 years of my life.  It was inspired after I lost my 15 year old Shih Tzu, Saki.